Tuesday, 19 May 2015


I rarely go deeply into my body confidence issues, but with so much overwhelming feedback about the level of depth my blog goes into recently, I feel like I need to go into this, to help me address my issues, and hopefully, it'll help you address yours too.
So, let's start.
Hello. I'm Samantha. 
I'm 20 years old, and since I was a child, I've struggled with my weight.
I think my weight problem started when I met a person who strongly influenced my family life, and was like a family member to me. This person themselves had a weight problem (quite a serious one) and I think I picked up bad habits from here.
For many years, family friends were actually concerned, asking my mum if I had anorexia because I was very thin at one point.
So my weight really rocketed from there. Since then, I've had some health problems, and one particular health issue actually makes it pretty hard to lose weight (I've spoken about it before, Polycystic Ovaries - you can read my post about it here)
So, I'm going to start trying to make a difference to my life. I'm going to do simple things to change. I've had a pretty bad binge eat this last week (thanks Pollies) and it's made me feel at rock bottom about myself and my weight. 
So, how am I going to do it?
*She says all this and notices her previous Instagram posts on the right of this post are both about bad food/drink* Guilty as charged, Sir. (PS I didn't eat that rolo. It's horrible!!!) 
1) I'm going to swap chocolate for apples. Strange, but this works. I'm not talking big badass apples, I'm talking those little ones you get for children because they are convenient for their lunchbox. I plan to eat two of these a day, to help cut my cravings, and fill me if I get desperate. 
2) I'm going to work on my target areas with tutorials from Blogliates, Cassey is amazing, and therefore I want to try and follow her simple, strengthening tutorials. Because if I can't have a perfect bod now, when can I?
3) I'm going to tell myself what I need to hear before I leave the house everyday. Whether it's "I am good enough" or "This is my temple." Whatever it is, if I want to hear it, I'm going to say it to myself to give myself the reassurance I need to go about my daily business.
4) I'm going to enjoy the sunshine whenever its out - I don't get out in it enough, and I'm so pale, that is means its so important I get some sunshine and Vitamin D.

Something that I find helpful for keeping cravings away or sustaining the desire to eat something sweet is to chew gum - I chew gum in secret, yes. I don't tend to chew gum in public, because it looks tacky, revolting and not at all feminine. But when I get cravings, I tend to chew Wrigley's Extra chewing gum that is bubblegum flavoured. It's in a pink pack, and it tastes amazing, Honestly, I chew a bit when I am feeling the desire to eat something sweet, and the desire is fulfilled with the gum, Strange, but true. Plus, it makes your room smell like bubblegum just from being in the packet!
Would you like to join me on my journey? If so, why not try some of these ideas yourself?
You can do it, if you put your heart into it!

Here's some music to help you do the Blogliates exercises: 
ODESZA - All We Need.
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Friday, 15 May 2015


I wrote this last night, because I've felt really emotional lately, and this is what I wrote;

"When the time comes for me to leave where I am now, I know it'll be heartbreaking. I'll feel lost. Again. 
Yet another deep end, and it'll be lonely. Hell, it'll hurt again. I'll say goodbye to even more friends, and it'll be time to make more.

The truth is, I'm happy-sad. Like the book that was read to me as a child about a washed up mermaid, who makes friends with two siblings and their parents whilst she is happy in the paddling pool they constructed for her in their garden, whilst she loves how considerate they were for winning her a goldfish in a fete, and pouring salt and seaweed into the paddling pool, she is always happy-sad. She misses the way the ocean embraces her, how her home sounds, and she misses her own parents. She is taken home by the siblings, whereby the goodbye is painful, but they all know that she has to go where she belongs.

And for me? I am, and shall be, "happy-sad". I don't want this all to end, I don't want that to happen. I know in my heart, I have to go and learn the lessons that university has to offer. Don't misunderstand me, I am excited, but my heart feels torn.

Disney - Enchanted.
I don't want everything to end. I just hope and pray it doesn't. It's not the world coming to an end, but sometimes, sometimes it feels like it. I'm excited to be going somewhere new, and to meet new people, and to study what I'm passionate about. But I'm a bit of a worrier. It's something I am.

And it's strange, but I keep having premonitions. I don't want to discuss them, because I don't want to 'jinx' it or anything, but I do, and whilst at first, I found it weird, now I just feel grateful for them. They're not often, but occasional. 

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Tuesday, 12 May 2015


So I decided it's time to do another review:

I bought a blue fire opal faux septum ring from @lunargirl (moonchildmetals) on Depop, (the same seller I bought the crackle quartz from last year) and I absolutely, have to say I love and adore this new product.

The septum ring fits quite loosely, apparently I either have a tiny septum (the bit on the upper central part inside the nose) or these are quite wide fitting! I had to use pliers to shape it a little smaller, however, it doesn't fit as closely to the base of the nose as it should, so I just wear it like this (reminds me of a bull ring hahaha) I just for some reason think it's so different, and I always like something a little different. 

I would never consider getting my septum actually pierced, as I've said before, I don't want anymore piercings, I'm considering one very small tattoo but that's it body wise. I'm content with my ear piercings. (I only wear two pairs of earrings, and I must own about 15!)

So, back to the product at hand. (Oh the pun is too good)

Wear - ability: 8/10 Whilst this is stunning with the blue fire opals, it isn't something you'd wear out to the shops (like I did yesterday so I could say how comfortable it feels to wear it!) It's more of an evening out, glamour sort of thing.
Fit:  7/10. This is looser than I'd like, but the comfort is better than I would've expected. You just have to get used to it.
Comfort: 9/10: Once I'd worn it for an hour, I was completely used to it being there and couldn't even feel it (I actually checked quite a few times that it was still there and hadn't fallen out!)
Seller: 10/10. Amazing, gorgeous products, gorgeous store, gorgeous packaging, amazing value for money.

Hope you enjoyed this review, and don't forget to take a look at her store on Depop, and follow me on there if you haven't already (:

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P.S For some reason, upon waking at 6.30am this morning, I couldn't stop singing "Escape" by Rupert Holmes. You know the one? "IF YOU LIKE PINA COLADAS AND GETTING CAUGHT IN THE RAIN!" Yeah, and now I want a Pina Colada, and a holiday pretty badly :')

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