Tuesday, 31 March 2015


It's weird to say, but a few days back, I watched a clip on Facebook called "The funniest moment on Gogglebox so far." Now having never seen Gogglebox, and seeing adverts and having a preconceived idea that the program was in fact, utter b*****ks, I didn't expect too much from this show. 
I watched the clip anyway, and I was hysterical. If you wonder which clip I in fact refer to, it is this one:
Sandy & Sandra Bug Swat.
I could honestly, and have honestly, watched that clip over and over, probably about 9 times or more now, and the facial reaction from Sandra makes me hysterical, and the fact that Sandy acts more like her parent than her best friend!
Okay, so I'll admit, I was hooked from that moment. Since yesterday, I've watched the entire of Series 5 on catch-up, and I'm now working my way through Series 4 in my breaks from revision, such as lunch time and longer tea breaks.

I can honestly say, I don't watch a lot of television, but I have had, or do have, a few guilty pleasures which include:
Come Dine With Me, Coach Trip, and now Gogglebox.

Of course, I love shows like Top Gear, as well, but I'm not a massive watcher of TV anymore. I find that if there is a comedy show on, or Live at the Apollo, I'll watch it, or My Family, or something comical, then yes, sure I'll enjoy it, but other TV just doesn't interest me too much anymore. Oooh and I forgot, anything wildlife(y) narrated by David Attenborough, David Tennant or Benedict Cumberbatch is a must watch. Especially when Mr Cumberbuttom cannot pronounce 'Penguin'!
 No clue what I refer to? This is what I speak of:
Penguin Pronounciation - Benedict Cumberbatch on Graham Norton.
(Keep your eyes open for Miranda saying "it's arousing and terrifying at the same time" hahahaha)
Anyway so back to Gogglebox, I've cried at about 4 episodes! I never knew I was so sentimental! I cried at 999 What's Your Emergency, when the man lost his wife on TV (because honestly, if you didn't have tears in your eyes at this, then I'm sorry, but you, you are a heartless bum!) Wow. I'm really on fire today.
I also cried at the 'Gladiator' scene, whereby Leon told June that when he died, he'd be with her always, and that, that right there, that made me sob!
June & Leon (as usual Leon is mortifying June!)
My favourite couples by far though, are June and Leon, and Dom and Steph. I love how Dom and Steph are always holding hands, always laughing, and when Steph said she hoped she would never get that old to die alone without Dom, he said "Oh don't worry, the moment you s*** yourself, you're going to fall out the window by accident." That had me in stitches.

Steph & Dom.
I absolutely love this new show, (it's not new to the public, just new to me) and I absolutely love it. I know, some would call it low level humour, but we can't be completely posh all of the time. I mean, I pride myself on being and appearing 'posh' but I guess my humour can occasionally be my downfall. Whoever marries me, will have to cope with my laugh - I know, it's awful, but laughing is a big percentage of happiness.
Another 'interesting' moment was this, but if you are not used to hearing, or do not like hearing the F word, please DO NOT watch it. That's my warning, as it isn't exactly PG-13 but we all know most 13 year olds know worse words than this by now, but I'm doing it so I know you are choosing to view it if you want to:
Stephen Tells Chris How It Is - Gogglebox Scene.
Have a BEAUTIFUL day. Why am I so hyper, all I had was a cheese wheat free Panini and a cuppa?
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Friday, 27 March 2015


I feel like at my age, I should be less self-conscious than I am. I mean, it's really getting to the point of being ridiculous. I get so nervous about wearing certain things, it's just stupid it really is. A friend of mine took some photos of me and another friend today (without me knowing) and whilst I look awful in one (blinking/laughing face) I don't look as appalling as I thought I would when I found out she'd been taking some. It does go to prove, it's all just a big fear, in your head, and whether it's me, or you, you should never feel like that. I mean, let's not get cocky about ourselves, but don't be so afraid and self conscious all the time.

I went out to dinner with a very lovely family friend yesterday, as he is going to live in Greece for the next two years and we might not see him again unless he comes for holidays here in England as he has rented out his English home, which is very sad, as he is really, really wonderful company and sparks some very interesting conversations.

One of the conversations that came about yesterday, was the inevitable; inter-perception (I thought this was a word, but apparently, according to the high and mighty google, it isn't. Disappointed face)

The conversation really roused me, in a positive way, as it made me think about how we perceive ourselves, and how others perceive us. It certainly made me think harder about the world, not that I really need to do that, because, I daydream a lot anyway. 

Speaking of daydreams, I saw a black cat yesterday with a CURLY piggy tail. It was the strangest, most amazing thing I've seen in a very long time (apparently, I do not get out much) but when I told my mum this, she asked if I had fallen asleep and dreamed it (oh she of little faith) thankfully, a friend on the bus also saw the mystery piggy cat too, so she could verify that I had actually seen it, wasn't going mad, and hadn't fallen down a rabbit hole.

Anyway, it is now Easter brealk, 2 weeks, and yet I can't feel excited about this as all it holds is endless revision -.- However, despite this, it's not the end of the world, and my Wii Zumba kit has arrived and is awesome, so I can do that everyday, before revision, so that makes me happy.

Anyway, I should really get off the internet, and get back to the real world, maybe I should go and meet my mother after work....

Have a beautiful weekend if I don't blog to you during the weekend - I genuinely have no blogging scheme at all anymore, it's as and when I feel 'inspired' shall we say?

Music choice is one of my favourite 'How To Train Your Dragon' theme pieces, and it's the background of the HTTYD Rise Of Berk app on the appstore (yes, shameful, I play it and enjoy it)

This Is Berk - HTTD Score.

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Saturday, 21 March 2015


So this evening I went out with Courtney, her sister, her sister's friend, and their lovely mum to a place I've never been before for dinner. It was such a wonderful evening, the place played great music, and the atmosphere was lovely. It was so good to catch up with her again so soon!

I will admit I look shoddy in the photo (that has now been deleted) I am trying to lose weight (apart from this evening and I had an unhealthy dinner, but everyone did so heeeey I'm a sheep apparently!) I also dyed streaks of blue into my hair on Friday night (it went terribly wrong with it all on one side) and I've washed it about 8/9 times since, trying to fade out the colour as I hate it, and much preferred it blonde. Why, oh, why do I always get such silly ideas, thinking I'm amazing at doing my own hair and then manage to mess it up? Silly Samantha strikes again. oooooh sibilance. Sorry, too much coursework in my head right now. Terminology being blurted out too often.
This evening I have been reflecting back to something that happened in our lesson on Thursday. My friend Dominique was telling me how she watched part way through the play through of Tomb Raider 2013, after I had told her how incredible the storyline was. I've personally not played it myself, because the game is so tense, and the death scenes are actually horrendous if you mess up. I really can't be dealing with that, however I watched the full 3/4 hours play-through in stages last year, with minimal death scenes, and really enjoyed the storyline. It also made me think about the two Tomb Raider films released. I enjoyed the first film the most, and Cradle of Life (the 2nd) came second in my mind. However, it did partially overtake the first in the mid stages, travelling across China.

I found Angelina as Lara to be very effective, and always admired her in the films. The first film is also how I came to hear a piece of William Blake for the first time, which would become my forever favourite piece of poetry. I also adored Angelina in Maleficent which I recently saw (at last!!) and completely and utterly adored. She's just so amazing at what she does! 

"To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour."
Lastly, I shall leave you with my favourite song this week that I've had on repeat:
Clean Bandit - Rather Be.

"We're a thousand miles from comfort, we have traveled land and sea 
But as long as you are with me, there's no place I'd rather be
                                                 I would wait forever, exalted in the sea
 As long as I am with you, my heart continues to beat,"

Goodnight, and sweet dreams, to whoever you are, wherever you are. If I could give you a hug, I would.

 Keep smiling, and enjoy the rest of your weekend. 

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Monday, 9 March 2015


"There's an old voice in my head 
that's holding me back 
Well tell her that I miss our little talks. 

Soon it will all be over, buried with our past 
We used to play outside when we were young 
and full of life and full of love. "

Little Talks - Of Monsters & Men.

Hello everyone, hello one and all. I just really particularly fancied listening to Of Monsters & Men today on the bus.

Whilst on the morning drive to college, I couldn't help but think about how much I can't wait for it to be Summer. Sitting in the sunshine, swimming in the sea (I braved it last year, although I'm not sure I will be again this year, it was darn cold!!) Pimms in the sun - *sighs* so lovely. But then I remember that I'll be awaiting exam results like all other students, and be in transition from college to university, and that's really quite terrifying. Hmm. I need to start facing my fears. 

Recently I've decided that I'd like to get fit before the Summer (as always), but I've decided to do Zumba from the comfort of my own home. I've whipped the Nintendo Wii out again, and I'm using Just Dance 2 to shake away my imperfections. I love to dance to Reggaetown 'Baby Girl' as it's the most perfect Zumba pace, and the moves shown are actual Zumba moves that I've been taught at private Zumba classes that I used to attend. I left my first Zumba class due to it being so overcrowded. One small dance/gym room filled with women of all ages was just unbearable as you could hardly breathe let alone move in the end, and despite loving the music choices, I left. The second private Zumba class was in an old church hall, and the accoustics were not very good, plus there was the atmosphere that felt like everyone was watching you. Or maybe that's just me being self conscious? Hmmm.. perhaps. 

Recently mum and I went to a famous garden, and she took some photos of me for the blog, so here they are:

Coat: River Island
Dress: Primark
Super Cosy Tights: Primark
Boots: Vagabond (They got so filthy out in the fields, that I had to hurriedly clean them and polish them again this morning before college haha!)

All: Same as before
Tortoiseshell Sunglasses: Primark

Such pretty crocuses!
I'm just exploring some new Of Monsters & Men music, but haven't found anything that I particularly adore yet.... I also keep debating making my blonde dip dye pink or blue again. But then again it took so long to wash the colours out last time..... Hmmmm. Wish lavender stayed in my hair better and didn't go blue overnight! 

"When I'm without you
I'm something weak
I don't wanna be needing your love
I just wanna be deep in your love
And it's killing me when you're away
Ooh, baby,
'Cause I really don't care where you are

My broken pieces
You pick them up
Don't leave me hanging, hanging
Come give me some
When I'm without ya
I'm so insecure
You are the one thing
The one thing, I'm living for"

Okay, yes, I love, love love this song. And I love the fact that Maroon 5 actually turned up to weddings to surprise happy couples. So gorgeous!! 

Love to you all, I recently had to make my Instagram and Twitter private due to being followed by an account I didn't want to know anything about me, so I have had to make them private, but if you'd like to keep up, send me a follower request, as I now consider them on a person to person basis (Oh the joys of being so fabulous) *Seriously though, I jest*


Imagine Dragons - On Top Of The World.

"I've had the highest mountains, I've had the deepest rivers."

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Sunday, 1 March 2015


"Hey, once upon a younger year
When all our shadows disappeared
The animals inside came out to play
Hey, went face to face with all our fears
Learned our lessons through the tears
Made memories we knew would never fade

"When you get older
Your wild heart will live for younger days
Think of me if ever you're afraid."

He said, "One day you'll leave this world behind
So live a life you will remember."

Avicii - The Nights.

And yes, all the pictures and GIFs on this post are going to be Lilo & Stitch related, because, I feel like it, and it really is the only thing that stops me feeling so nervous before exams.

Anyway, this week are mock exams with a collapsed timetable, and whilst I try to avoid moaning, I am just so irritated that my hardest mock exam on Tuesday is from 3.00pm to 5.00pm. We don't usually finish that late. Ugh. I am so grateful my mum is on holiday this week as she has offered to take me to and from mock exams (and I'm so so grateful)! I'll be definitely taking a little lucky exam mascot. I have revised, and I feel like I'm okay with tomorrow's exam, so if I do really badly, at least I have tried. God, I really need to stop being so negative. I'm not this bad usually, I promise, you already know I usually have a sunny disposition, with a teensy bit of grumpiness if someone annoys me, but that's not usually the case. I am usually very happy, and positive, I'm just nervous, that's all.

Enough moaning about me and feelings of nervousness. Silly me. There are just times when you want someone to just hug you and say everything is going to be okay, because although I do know it, I just sometimes need a bit of reassurance. I'm grateful to mum for being so accepting of me and for understanding that I do try really hard, I just feel like in later years, I'm not the brightest cookie in the jar. Why did I use this silly, useless term? Well dear reader (okay yes, that was more patronising than I was hedging for) it is because I feel like using it. That sort of mood. Plus I'm allowed to feel that way today. 

"These are the nights that never die."



 Never give up. Never lose faith in what you're doing and where you're going. Never give up on love, know that you're not insane for wishing you could read minds sometimes, know that you'll be okay. Eventually, you'll glow like a solar fire, and no-one will be able to stop you, they'll just be able to bathe in the warmth you radiate, and love you for who you are.

Probably the most random post I've ever written but my thoughts are scattered like marbles on a floor. This is my way of collecting them up.

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